missed my calling this time

well it seems I have allowed reason to overshadow my whims. I won't be going to South Korea for a month in July. Mainly because my current job can not be guaranteed to me upon my return, and I really don't want to go through the process of having to look for and apply for another job. especially since I will also begin classes in August (two days after I would be returning from SK). Another reason was the Visa process. I only had two and half weeks to obtain a temporary Visa, and for those of you who know what this process is like, the length of time it takes depends solely on the people from which you must go through to get all of the appropriate documents. With all that said, I've asked the school to keep me in mind for their Winter camp which also gives me plenty of time to obtain said Visa. There is still that part (a big part) of me that wants to go, be apart of that life that is Korean culture, eat the food, and most of all meet up with old friends. Yet there is that small, nagging part of me that continues to whisper reason whenever I begin to waver, that holds me back.